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Happy New Year everyone!!! Finally, 2008 is over and things are starting out better than ever. Amongst all of the lessons I've learned in 2008 I can honestly say I will not miss it. I've never been more happy to see a new year. Of course, we have a new president taking office which is great news! I've been doing a lot of changing on the outside of my life like painting my house with a brand new amazing coat. Treating people better, making plans for my future, you know, a new bright and shiny color. New Years resolutions are just as effective as you make them. There's no such thing as new years magic, or a new year super change everything button. Make plans...execute! I spent New Years Eve surrounded by the people who matter to me, people who I wouldn't mind spending the year with. It was awesome! I saw a lot of family and it reminded me of how many reasons there are for me to be happy. I know that this happiness thing gets repetitive in my posts but I'm sure of how easy it is for people to fall off the bandwagon just by one negative thought. Coming here should be a reminder for you to always choose happiness no matter what...because I mean why not?

If you haven't already written down your new years resolution, stop reading this post and go grab an unused notebook, piece of scrap paper, back of an envelope and write, write, write! Keep it some place where you will see it, or glance at it and I promise you that these things will manifest. I must admit that my list has gotten pretty ridiculous over the years, now to 210, but number 1. I've been writing it for two years and number 2. there are more things crossed off than not so...you tell me if it's effective. Hey it's up to you!

To totally go off topic:



I started watching 30 Rock today. It's hard for me to start watching a show and actually get into it but 30 Rock is hilarious! I got tired of people telling me how funny it is and saying I'm eventually going to watch it. I'm only still on the first season but I'm pretty deep in. If you haven't already watched you probably should! If you have netflix you can watch it instantly, it's worth it trust me!!

So, make your list and on that list put choose happiness, and watch 30 Rock!

Ciao for now!

All I want for Xmas!

Golly! Christmas is on Thursday! I know this is my first blog of December but I will make it up to you in the new year. Things in life, as you all know, can be a bit crazy. That is what things have been like. Amongst the business of school and trying to catch up with myself I kind of lost my head a bit. I am back and feeling very good again!
I recently started using Genius on iTunes! It is amazing quite frankly! You probably already know this but I never paid it any mind. Now I actually know what's good on my iTunes! Yeah!
Sadly, I am not in the Christmas spirit but I'm sure as the day slowly approaches I will be. I wont be home to see the joy in my little sister's eyes when she opens her gifts. I will be working. I think Santa is giving me hours at my job for Christmas. That's all I want, and The Office Season 4 on DVD. See, I don't ask for much! I didn't buy any gifts this year...hold on, hold on...I will give you the reasons.

1. Times are hard.
2. I buy gifts every other year and this one year, I'm just not doing it.

Those are the only reasons. I will figure some other things out and let you know what I come up with. No, seriously I'm trying to save money. Everyone should understand that, and Christmas didn't make the cut this year. Next year will be much much better. I'm sure!

Christmas Lights

I hope everyone had a tasty Thanksgiving as I did, along with Birthday Cake. Many laughs, and many friends...isn't that what life is all about. Enjoying where you are. I know I said I am eager to travel, but in the same respect maybe I haven't given where I am enough credit. I need to appreciate my place on earth. I am very fortunate to have what I have.

The winter is starting to depress me, and the fact that I can feel it coming helps me to be a little happier. I get like this every year. There has to be something wrong with my life, even if there isn't really. I think I'll be okay.

I'm going to cling to the beautiful Christmas lights I see everyday, everywhere I go. I know that there are people who are actually excited for this time of year. Maybe I should hang Christmas lights. It could cheer me up. Let me just put this out in the universe: I need to travel somewhere...or I will crawl out of my skin! okay glad that's out! Don't worry people I'm still smiling. Buy me a great gift for Christmas or burn me a CD! C'mon, I'll burn you one too.

Grow! Grow! Go!

Opening my eyes finally! I had two really great moments today! On my way home on the train, I realized how important it is for me to see the world. I ride the same train almost every day in the same direction and that doesn't really sit too well with me. It was almost like I could feel the days of my life being wasted away on the same railroad track, with the same people, and the same scenery.
I've seen a lot of unfortunate things in myself and other people over the years and I feel like it is time to go out and make changes.

That was one realization!

Also, working at the hotel today, a woman came up to the front desk and asked me are there any local bingo spots. I think to myself...hmmm...no I have no idea. I haven't even heard the mention of Bingo in at least a year, but I looked it up for her on the Internet. I searched through Google Maps, Google, Yellow Pages, and a number of other search engines. I found a place and called to check their hours for her. A very petite woman with an awesome black furry hat and shiny baggy black pants waited patiently for the results. I gave her the hours and I apologized for the wait. She replied to me "Oh, It was worth the wait, I think I'll go tomorrow. Thank You!"

Yes, that's the entire story BUT if you would have heard the tone of her voice and the happiness she felt after I had done all of that bingo research you would have been just as touched as I am right now. It was a feeling I wont forget!



Fires are beautiful, they glow, and grow, and release warmth until they die. Balloons are beautiful, they are colorful and light up faces, floating higher and higher swaying this way and that way until they pop!

I refuse to not glow, grow, float, sway, give off warmth, light up faces, and reach my full potential...

How quickly we forget...

Sometimes it rains, wets the leaves, and I get sad.

Is anyone as excited as I am for November? Oak Oak Okay has two shows next weekend...awesome! My birthday, DeDe Marie's birthday (baby sis), Thanksgiving, black friday, I just can't wait for all this action! There's nothing better. I've been gone for a little while, busy about town. Now I'm back and curious as to how everyone else is feeling this time around? I hope noone gets depressed because of the time of year, or the early darkness (drives me nuts). Give me sunshine, or give me death.
Boy has this been an interesting year. It's so remarkable how quickly you can lose someone and things can change. It's really funny because you think if someone died or left you, you wouldn't know what to do. Once they're gone you can do nothing but move on. That's what saddens me most. How easily we forget. it could either be a blessing or a curse. I dont know. What do you think? There's really no need for us to get upset with each other because 5 minutes later you will just forgive them...Why even waste the time. Forgive and Forget. For real.

Today I was in a cranky kind of mood. I have to memorize a scene from a play tonight for my acting class and it's not looking too good. Maybe I will get some weird stares on the train tomorrow while I am rehearsing...but who cares? I have plenty of things to be grateful for in this here month of November...Just counting my blessings!

YES WE CAN!

Congratulations to Barack Obama!

I am at a loss for words, and to answer your question, yes I cried.

I voted for change!

So much is happening! Today I casted my vote for the first time in a presidential election. Of course, I voted for change because that's what we so desperately and clearly need. I got an automated phone call last night from John McCain, about fighting bushes policies. I find that hard to believe when he said he supported Bush 90% of the time. I'm thinking I made the right decision at 8 AM this morning when I voted for Obama. Lets just think awesome democratic thoughts and pray he gets this! Just get out and vote because, because, because the polls close at 8 PM in most places. Even if you are in line at 8 you have the right to vote. So exercise that right people.

Oh yeah, and thank god the Phillies won because I couldn't take any more impatient fans, unsure of the turn out. Rest assured the Phillies are awesome!

There's a really cool photostream on City Papers website today! Do check it out!
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